All Christian churches like to target the young first, as the foundational years of life are most susceptible to indoctrination. Whether you are still an active church member or not, you have willingly (or as is my case, unwillingly) participated in a specific indoctrination process. In the case of Christianity, this brainwashing involves the repetition of specific dogma designed to keep you within the ‘faith’.
When I was young I was indoctrinated into the Catholic Church, which, like all Christian Churches, demands the worship of Jesus. This was despite the same bible they loved to teach about stating there can be only one God. So with that in mind, we were taught there is only one God, but three Gods also, but God is really Jesus, but he isn’t because of the Heavenly Father, but he is because they are the same person. It was these inconsistencies that helped initiate, enforce and prolong my suffering with bipolar when I was older.
There was no healing from Jesus. There were no answered prayers from Jesus. However, God made themselves known to me through my writing and my art and I feel so thankful to have survived Christianity and religion in general. I now write from a place of humility and thankfulness before a true God. The LORD. If you are Christian then I have to share Jesus’ (apparent) words after coming back from the dead:
Then Jesus came to them and said, “All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me.”
Matthew 28:18
So by this logic (and using Jesus’ own words) I hereby find him GUILTY. If, as the Bible and Jesus themselves attest, He has all authority on Earth and in Heaven then he is solely responsible for the hundreds of years of suffering Christianity has put into the world. For genocide. For the murder of mentally ill people like myself accused of being “Demons” and “Witches”. He is responsible for the pedophiles that molest children in his “holy” name. He is responsible for the bigotry of every Christian believer.
He is responsible for a younger version of me, forced to worship a false idol of Jesus. Forced to kiss the feet of a wooden corpse on a cross. Jesus, the man pretending to be god. A man who, by his own words claims to be in charge of everything in all of existence. So every child molestation committed by Christian priests and pastors was by Jesus’ own design. He wanted those kids to be molested and broken. Just like he wanted people with mental illnesses like myself to be seen as “demons” even though no such thing as demons exist.
It is no accident that no Christian Churches (or any Christian on this planet) can perform even a single miracle claimed by Jesus or by his early followers. No raising of the dead. Not even the ability to heal a minor skin rash. No miracles at all. People who claim to be divinely chosen by God can wave a Bible around all they like, they will never be representatives of God on Earth because they believe in a fairytale god.
My God values wisdom above all else. So I hope to be able to bring some of that to you here in my new series I Wear White as I discuss both faith and mental illness from a personal point of view. My intention is not to offend, but I know this subject does offend. If you are Christian or deeply religious try to keep in mind that I do not live in the time of Jesus, you cannot stone me to death. I also do not live in the time when Christianity did rule over nations, so you cannot burn me at a stake or hang me for my honesty.
I live in a time that was predicted by Daniel the prophet and servant of the LORD (the same God I serve). A wonderful time when religious people will lose all of their power:
The man clothed in linen, who was above the waters of the river, lifted his right hand and his left hand toward heaven, and I heard him swear by him who lives forever, saying, “It will be for a time, times and half a time. When the power of the holy people has been finally broken, all these things will be completed.”
Daniel 12:7
I am so thankful to know now that Jesus cannot hurt me anymore than he can heal me. Since I have known the LORD, I have not always had the easiest of lives, but He (unlike Jesus and his Christian churches) has never lied to me. So I hope my own inadequacies as a person (including my bipolar affective disorder) do not bring any negative views of a God I have been happy to serve for many years now. No Jesus needed.